Today I was officially diagnosed; I am an over protective mom. It started 8 years ago when my first child was born. When she was 5 and was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes I thought: well, I must have had a good reason, somehow, deep down I knew she really needed my protection, but now, when on the list of my worst fears appeared the risk of severe hypoglycemia I became the over protective mom that keeps her daughter's blood sugar on the higher side. The problem with running on the higher side is that the distance between slightly high and too high in our case is less than a quarter of a unit of Insulin per hour, and so although we follow all the medical instructions and regimen, my daughter has reached the undesired A1C levels of 8.7. What was I doing wrong? We check blood sugar at least 4 times per day, use the most sophisticated insulin pump, bolus insulin for every gram of carbohydrate eaten, correct high numbers. Why is this A1C insists on staying high?
So the problem is probably me, the over protective mom. Other than balancing my 8 year old daughter's diabetes I struggle hard to keep her life normal and sane. Make sure she eats whatever and whenever she wants, do any kind of activity that kids her age are doing, feel free, enjoy life and be a child like she should. At the same time I try to make sure that our life as a family are happy as well and that we, her parents can have a calm and carefree (within the obvious limits of course) sleep during the night. And above all that we try to make sure she stays safe and healthy. So I think we get at least 85% of it right, with the A1C populating most of the remaining 15%. Not good enough. But what am I doing wrong? I am probably doing too much. I know I should just learn to let go sometimes, risk a lower blood sugar once in a while for a better blood sugar control. So we are back to my own diagnosis. How do you treat an over protective mom?
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